I'm Jessica. And I wish I looked like that (^) everyday. Plain and simple, yet beautiful... Not that I don't feel beautiful, just that, like any other girl, some days it is a lot harder than others to feel as amazing as I did that day.
Today is one of those days. I woke up this morning/early afternoon and felt like I had been hit by a bus. I didn't have a long night up partying, but instead I made myself fall asleep last night pretty late when I wasn't even sleepy. Some how this morning I finally rolled over from the dead, looked around, and then looked at the clock. 10:37am. I thought to myself, "How can this even be?! I wasn't even tired when I went to sleep... How did I manage to sleep all day once again? And where's Joey? Why didn't he wake me up and tell me bye?"
Once I finally woke up physically AND mentally, I realized that just like every morning, he probably did tell me goodbye, I was just too asleep to remember. I grabbed some shorts out of my dresser, looked in the mirror, snarled my nose, and then almost fell to the floor as I grabbed my head. I could feel every heartbeat, and hear it. Instantly I knew it was going to be one lazy day that starts out with a massive headache.
I came out of the room and headed straight to my secret affair. His name is Coffee Pot, and our relationship is patchy. Depends on the day to determine our attraction, but our "chemistry" is always there. Grabbed my favorite coffee drinking cup and begin to make love to the sugar bowl. Lots & lots would do the trick. Stirred it, stirred it, and stirred some more, and found myself stirring myself back to sleep. Guess I wasn't in the mood for waking up at all... After a few sips, I began to come out of that mood. By this time, it was 11ish. One hour until Joey comes home for lunch.
Within the hour, I began to set up this blog. I knew last week I wanted to start a blog, but I had no clue how I should start it, what it should be about, or what it would become. I've followed a few blogs before and they seemed to inspire me to write. So why not do it? I thought it over multiple times within the week, and decided for sure, I was going to make it happen.
After Joey went back to work, I sat back down with the intention of laying out the first blog with ease. Ehh, not so much. Didn't happen as planned. This isn't as easy as I thought it was, but ironically, as I write I'm getting excited at all the places I can go with this blog... I looked up a 30 day challenge, just to make sure I can start the first month off with a wide topic range. Tomorrow starts the challenge, but as for today, I'm going to try to justify my reason for this blog.
I have realized throughout the past six or so months that its really hard to maintain a happy go lucky persona if you keep everything bottled up inside. No, I will not let this become a whiney/crybaby sob story, but rather solidify my view on things and use it as a daily dose of "ventilation."
Since it is the first blog, I won't bore it down and make it a million pages long. In conclusion, I hope to be able to look back at this collection later in the year and see myself mature, become more expressive, and grasp a hold of self identity.
Sincerely,
Ms. Needs More Coffee.
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