Today, I Am a Rant Ant.

“Growing up is never straight forward. There are moments when everything is fine, and other moments everything is out of control. You will realize that there are certain memories that you'll never get back, and certain people that are going to change, and the hardest part is knowing that there's nothing you can do except sit back and watch them..."

                         -Aleden Nowlan

I can't remember a time when I didn't want to grow up. It could never come soon enough. The adult world seemed ideal during that time. A "do as you please" lifestyle is everything I wanted. In my mind at that time, the only concept of being an adult was: No one to tell me to do the dishes, no one to make me go to bed, and no one to tell me I could not do something. I wanted to make my own choices, do my own thing, only have to care about myself, and most of all, I wanted to not have to listen to anyone. Bills didn't exist, and money was limitless...If only that preset conception of an adult was the actual reality of being an adult.

In reality... Bills do exist, and there are A LOT of them. Money is not limitless, and there is NOT a lot of it. You still have to listen to people... Just now, punishment for not listening includes jail, more bills, and even more consequences than to be just grounded for a month. No one tells me to do the dishes, but no one will do them for me if I don't. No one makes me go to bed, but now I have so much to do, I always want to go to bed. No one tells me what I can't do, just what I have to do. No one ever mentioned the many things that become your responsibility once you leave the comfort of your mothers wing. Just in this week I have filed my taxes for the first time ever, applied for my birth certificate, changed my driver's license, and applied for insurance.

Officially a Louisianian.

Another part of growing up that's so unfortunate is you lose some of the people closest to you.. I guess part of growing up is deciding which of those "friends" are actually your FRIENDS. So many people have walked in and out of my life that I really do have less than a handful of people I would consider my friends. Of course, all friendships have their ups and downs, but at times, you have to realize not everyone will always be your BFF.

Now, that I'm done with my rant, on the brighter side of life...

New Orleans is becoming more and more permanent. I'll get to experience Mardi Gra first hand, and I can't wait to see my first parade! Joey and I are doing great, and I'm still falling in love with him over and over again. I'm excited to start working and saving money so that one day, Joey and I will be all out on our own.  Life is coming together, slowly, but surely. :)