life is chaotic, beautifully chaotic.

I used to think I hated routine. I preferred to be spontaneous and sporadic, and in some aspects I still do, but as I'm moving forward into my adulthood, I'm learning to appreciate routine and structure.

Life is changing, and with each passing change, I'm learning more and more about myself.

I've learned that I actually do enjoy cleaning my house. It feels amazing to come home to something I can call my own and it be nice and neat, exactly the way I left it.

I've learned that life is not all about being seen. The best things come behind closed doors... The memories you make with the family around a fireside, the laughs you share with those you love most, the sweet personality traits you remember about each other when you are just living every day normally.

I've learned that sometimes those sweet little gestures someone does for you out of the kindness of their heart are more important than the amount of money it took to show that gesture. To me, someone's genuine thoughts are priceless.

I've learned that not everyone has the same beliefs as you do. You will learn more about yourself and learn to appreciate the value of your own beliefs once you listen to theirs. Don't be arrogant and shut them out. Listen and learn. Respect that they have their own belief. Think about it from their point of view. You are an outsider to them, just as they are to you.

I've learned that you really can't buy happiness. To me, the definition of happiness isn't how many parties I went to, isn't how many slutty Halloween costumes I wore, isn't how many beers I drank, weed I smoked, guys I slept with. That's not what happiness is at all. Happiness is that moment at the end of the day when you stop and realize you are completely bored and totally okay with it cause you've completed your day with a smile on your face with the ones you love supporting you.

I've learned that love is hard, but the sacrifices you make are the strengths that pull you together. Love is one of the most amazing and strongest feelings in the entire world when both people are equally sacrificing.

I've learned work isn't called work because it's easy. Work is hard. Its long, boring, and tiresome. But I've also learned without work, you will have nothing. With that being said, work is rewarding. I know at the end day, when the work is done, I will make something of myself and have everything I want.

I've learned that dreams and goals change as you gain experience in the world. Chase your dreams and let life mold them. Enjoy the ride, you aren't going to make it out alive anyway.

And last but definitely not least, I've learned to tell the ones I love that I love them. Anything can happen and words unspoken speak the loudest.

Listen for my latest life motto song. 

The River- Garth Brooks